Panic attack.. Again..

This morning around 2am I woke up with my heart race like crazy, my hands was shake, and it was difficult for me to breath. I walked to bathroom for number 1, usually my heartbeat will be slower after I pee. My panic attack sometimes come just because I need to pee while I'm sleeping. Ghos.. My body really have problem with it's alarm! -_-"

After peed my heart was still racing, I know I was dehydrated because my mouth was so dry. Many times I got panic attack because my body lack of water -_-" I walked to kitchen area and grab a cup, tried to mix cold water with hot water from water dispenser but my hands was shaking, I spilled hot water on my foot. My reflect was to jump backwards. But I left the hot water flow.. 😭 I turned it off as soon as I realize it. God.. Last night was terrible!

After drank few cups of water I walked back to my bed, set up my fave movie and put my earphones on, watched that movie help me to distract my attention from my panic condition. It's been more than 10 years, but every time I get panic attack it's always terrible experience..