Negative Thinking

I think I've been too much thinking.. negative thoughts been taking over me T_T

I must stop it, I know I must stop it. Not chatting with me, and not even send me any message or reply it's too much already for me.. I keep thinking.. why he's not contacting me at all? Is there something happened? Bad news that I received this last few days really affect me.. I really don't want to receive another bad news that someone back off T_T Oh no.. it's the worst thing ever slip in my mind, I should stop thinking anything like this :(

I should believe in him like I believe in God. But the fact is I doubt him like I doubt God.. Hohoho.. what happened with me..

I need to reset my mind for sure. Please.. somebody slap me on my face!
I really need slap on my face.. or a kiss on my lips? lol

I won't let this negative thinking taking over me, I'm not that weak. I believe in you baby like I believe in God's fate. I must be careful with my thoughts for sure ^_^
I will do my best!

 

Euro 2012 : France vs England

Oh, just finished saw Euro 2012 championship between France and England. And the final score is

France 1 -1 England

Goal for France made by Nasri and for England scored by Lescott

My comments:

Both of team play well, but I think France play better than England tonight. I'm supporting England, but I must admit that France player is faster, good in ball control, and have better ball possession;) One name that really caught my eyes, he is Nasri. He really have good performance tonight;)

I'm expecting better performance for England team on the next matches, 1 point is never be enough pal.. all we need is 3 points to be the champ!

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Oh it's morning already..
Yesterday I've been so unproductive. Yeah I'm working in the morning until noon, but I fell asleep in the afternoon for about 3 hours! That's really doesn't like the usual me :D

I have a lot of work to do, stock clearance. Still can't make it, at least a real success. I was expecting I will able to sell at least half of my current stock. But it's a bit hard, I have problem with concentrate with my work. All being meddled by wed preparation thing or sometimes my baby come to mind and I just can't concentrate. I don't know why I'm loosing control like this, but I must be able back in control soon. That soon will be tomorrow!

I really need to kick on my own butt or slap my own face to get my self back, OMG T_T

I think I need to sleep now, I need to start managing my self back very early in the morning tomorrow. May God always be with me, tho I often left him.. I'm renewing my faith now, I think only god knows what's on my mind now..

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Thought you lie to me and play with my heart. I was so sad. Knowing that it just because of bad math, makes me feel better. We still need to learn to understand to each other, to make this relationship stronger each day. And I don't mind to keep learning with you.

I'm not mad at you, I don't have enough energy to do that. I was so sad but I'm okay now. Thank you for not play with my heart.

It's June already!

Oh it's June already!

Let's counting down the time.. it's about 6-7 weeks for our meeting time, yay!

I never thought that summer will be this special. Well I live in tropical country so I don't have summer, I only have rainy and dry season. And it is our dry season now, yeah.. it's HOT baby!

Time just flies without I realize it. I have so many things to do, and I feels like I don't have enough time. Let's see what's on the list for this month:

* Visit gynecologist

* Must get that dress

* Should get the shoes and backpack

* Should get suitcase

* Mine n my baby's docs, contact the officer

* Learning English grammar

* Learning Chinese -- OMG!

* Check with embassy about sworn translator

* Fix old laptop

* Should get new clothes for moving? I dunno...

* Pray, pray, pray ^.^

That's all the list for now.

Feel so nervous about this summer ~__~