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Still in Hong Kong airport,  tired. Woke up at 4am this morning,  my neck n back feels hurt. Still 2 hours before the departure time. Feel very sleepy but I just can't. I think I will sleep later on the plane.

It will be a long day. I will not be able to sleep well before 6pm I guess. Can't wait when I arrived at the hotel. I will sleep in a nice bed, releasing my neck and back pain, lol

I'm missing my baby.. he should be getting ready for work now.. hope he's okay when I'm leaving. I feel worry about how he'll eat,lol.don't want him to eat junk food most of the time.  That's not good for his health.

To know that he love me so much make me feel happy. When he told me he feels lucky to have me, I felt flattered.. lol. Hey I'm a woman!

Sleep over at Hong Kong airport

It's 12:06 am, n I'm here alone in Hong Kong airport. My flight to my home country will be depart tomorrow morning. I'm not the only person who sleep over here. Some people sleep in the benches in front of me.

The question is, What am I doing at this time? Why am I still awake? The answer is I'm charging my cellphone on the public charger. Different with What they have in Jakarta airport, this facility don't have individual chamber n lock for each plug. So I can't leave my phone, must guarding it till finished charging.  Oh my God!  Lol

Ski

I went for skiing yesterday, that was my first time and might be the last time I do that. When we rent the ski boots the officer gave me size 40 instead of 38/39. Can u imagine? It's my first time wearing that weird heavy boots and they gave me the wrong size. I can't move easily cuz the boots just too big, too heavy, and trapped my movement. I told him that I couldn't walk because the boots was too big, he said it's not too big and it's not designed for walk, it's for ski. What he didn't understand was wearing too big boots will make you barely move!

Felt neglected coz he didn't believe what I said. I tried to keep using those ski equipments, when I took hook that dragged me to the top of the mountain slope I fell down, I really can't control my feet movement. Did it twice and fell down twice, I was so angry.

Climbed up to the top by walking, tried my best to walk on those boots. When I arrived at the top I tried skiing, but I scared to death. It's so high and sloppy and I can't control my feet because of those awful boots. A perfect combination! I cried, scared n mad. I think I was scared of height, I must walked down the hill with boots that made me unbalanced all the time. Terrible :-(

I will not go for ski again I guess.. Or maybe I'll try again with boots that fit my feet and decide whether the problem is from the boots or I just scared of height.

One last word for my first ski experience, TERRIBLE!

Back To School!

Today I signed up for 2 classes on online course website. Yes I'm preparing to back to college when we're back to U.S.. I'm so excited! It's been 7 years since I graduated from university, I hope my brain not frozen by the time, lol.

Need to sleep now, will write again soon ;-)

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Feels like loosing my energy to make my self energized as usual. We had fight last night, not really fight but he said something that hurt me. Knew that he didn't understand my situation and said he didn't like what I'm doing was hurt me. He also said that he's afraid that I will be bored with my part time job and start to talk to another guy and left him. I know he was hurt in the past, but he must know that I'm not woman from his past. He should have faith for me. I left my comfort zone and my family just for him, isn't that proved something?

We already talked about this problem last night and made up at the same time. He said sorry for what he said. But somehow I feels like loosing some of my passion.. maybe I just need to take a walk..